eesh... you ever have a moment where you're just wandering along... la dee da daa...

when suddenly a huge sledge hammer of reality hits you fill force in your solar plexus?

cha.

So I'm getting ready for bed... but first! Let's go take a look at those talented (but older, always older) artists over at Deviantart.com!

Oh lookie here~!

I've never looked into the comic section before... and OooOOoo!

some new cool artists!

So I begin to browse through these really fantastic, and some less fantastic, artists, just happily thinking to myself how they have more experience, how they've really worked at it over a long period of time...

when I find this REALLY REALLY good cartoonist.

I mean... she's got motion, character design, technical skills, the whole shebang. And it's not a copy of other people's work either see?

It has this really unique look and feel to it.

Wow I think... one day I hope to be this good...

and then I see it.

She's younger than me. She's sixteen... and she's... so so good.

Easily my superior in EVERY SINGLE WAY when it comes to drawing in a cartoony, anime influenced style.

by a million times.

And then it hits me.

She talks about how she's spent like 12 hours on this one.... 6 hours over here... a few WEEKS on a new piece...

All my most recent drawings and cartoons have all been under three hours...

Now... sure sure... I have my excuses...

I have classes, and homework, on normal school days all day long four days of the week.

no time then.

friday and saturday I see Veronica.

no time then.

sunday I work all day.

so no time then.

but it's still unacceptable.

Completely ridiculous.

so. FUCK THIS SHIT.

I love doodling. I will keep doodling. But If some sixteen year old can make drawings that at my current rate I won't make for something like EIGHT MORE YEARS... I *Really* need to get on the ball.

Screw having a life.

I need to start drawing way. Way. WAY. more.